So, I am seeing my friend’s face in my mind. It keeps coming up, but it’s in that background, underground place that is dreamy so I don’t normally -actually attend it closely enough to notice it throughout the day-.

And then I actually start to write these words as my facebook update (in a daze, without understanding why):

‘Is there anything I can do that would be of aid and make you feel that you had an ally?’

And so I write most of this phrase as my update, then stop and reflect upon it, and think, ‘what the hell am I doing here?’ and go check my email before finishing it.

There, the person I kept seeing in my mind had written me an email essentially expressing the precise content I had been automatically writing as my update. Which my rational mind reasonably questioned.

And that is what the hell I am doing here.

P.S: Is there anything I can do that would be of aid and make you feel that you had an ally?