Why you’re alive isn’t some empirical ‘reason’ and no explanation will encompass this matter, though language is deceptive and can easily invent the appearance of such things. It is, I would suggest, instead… the purposes around which your thought, behavior, expectations, imaginings… concerns and desires… orbit. And there is often conflict here… between one’s heart or native interiority… and all that from the culture and language of humans pervasively invades us with the purposes of domination, replacement… and counterfeiting.