“Certain psychedelics… ayahuasca… it’s like annealing, which is a heat treatment in material science… whereby the introduction of entropy… when a substance cools, well, it acquires a new local minimum. So each time I did this psychedelic, I located a new local (minimum)! of »meaning.

And this changed how I made sense of things, and I’m not talking about structured sequences in my head; I am talking about the way in which I can sense whether things make sense, the backdrop which, ever-present while thinking, allows me to tell, intuitively, when I’m… when I have done something that doesn’t add up or make sense, or contradicts something else that I’ve said.

It’s… for me I had to reach a conclusion, at a certain point, ahh, that I »just wasn’t there at any level.

I talked about… there were parts of myself, parts of my soul… I was well-attuned to mindfulness meditation where I realized my thoughts don’t always make sense… but this is not … this is different than your thinking mind running amok or being pathological. Usually you can transit to a mindfulness state… because … the whole context you’re operating inside of, inside yourself, becomes uninterruptible, and you can’t tell anything at all…»you can no longer trust your evaluative capacities in any sense whatsoever».”

— an anonymous informant (js)