Before you think of jobs or cash, ask this: what forms of pay are there? And which form is -my- desire? For money is too often rape, and other forms of pay are true, and deeper still than numbers which, alas, we may not inhabit… regardless of our otherwild exhortations, wars, and fantasies. Which -kind- of pay is the one you -came to Earth in hope of?-

Surely it was not the form with images of dead men printed on stolen blood. No, it was not this kind. No, it can never, ever be.