If you have any idea how strange everything really is, you will realize that it is not possible to model it in the languages we possess and the ways we use them. You then realize that all previous attempts at this were catastrophic failures precisely because the difference between describing and participating is the difference between hubris and intimacy. Everything is really so vastly weirder than all of our suppositions, that intimacy is the only move that actually gets anywhere. Intimacy participates. Description simulates. Relation set opposite to abstraction.